Two steps forward, one step back and I sure as hell ain’t perfect. I am used, taken advantage of, and constantly second guessing everything I do. I try to stand up for myself, but I am still so damn desperate for everyone’s approval. I am still that little girl who didn’t believe she was enough, who didn’t believe she could make it. I take each day like a battlefield, constantly fighting against myself. I wish we were on the same team. I don’t know where to go from here. I seem to find myself clinging onto certain people in my life while pushing others way. I’m still looking for that validation. I don’t think people realize how they affect me or realize how personally I take things. It’s my personality to take on the emotions of the world as well as my curse.